SPROG

My old (baby less) friends came over for a catch up today for the first time in months and I found myself being quite negative about babies.

I don’t know if it’s the fact they don’t have babies, nor is it even a thought in the near future for them both or just the fact that I haven’t shared the not so lovely parts of having a baby to anyone yet?

It felt good to vent judgment free (or so i hope) but once they left I just felt terrible!

I love my little man so much and yes I get annoyed at the sleepless nights, boogie sucking, high pressured nail cutting, constant cheesy korma poops, non stop worry etc but I’m also trying to savour every second because his growing so fast and I’m never going to get this back.

I shouldn’t be so negative but I think it is key to be honest about babies. I see now why people sugar coat it sometimes, not because they’re in denial but because of they’re scared of loosing it.

So we’ve had the odd little giggle here and there but this morning he laughed. Not once but a few times, full on and at me (not daddy) :-p

It was super adorable!

The 3am baby poop volcanic eruption over his daddy…. LMFAO!!!

WOWZA my hair seems to be falling out like crazy….. I’m assuming this is the hair loss everyone talks about post pregnancy - that or I’m going bald!!

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Getting out really did lift my mood today but what I think I really need is a little break.

So I have booked a spa day with my friend on Sunday for some much needed chill time. And it was paid with gift cards so I’m spending zero money so it’s properly guilt free chill time - BONUS!!

Bub can spend the day with daddy so I have no quarms (she says knowing full well the anxiety will kick in an hour after I leave LOL).

So do you ever just wake up and realise life has got just a tad bit hard?

I mean I’ve been off now for almost 4 months (11weeks with bub), the visitors have wore off, everyday seems to be the same, money or lack of for that matter seems to be a constant concern, that constant zombie feeling whilst trying to hold together a ‘semi’ normal relationship - it’s just starting to feel a bit, well dull and hard for that matter.

Maybe it’s just the time of the month or maybe my sanity is starting to dissipate… Who knows?

I just hope it picks up soon.

I’d pay good money for a lay in right now - oh to have a weekend again!!

ciaradotrad:

Who are into natural birth and breast feeding!

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It’s a new day so were going to try baby C’s hearing aids gradually today. I’m going to suck it up and get on with it as baby C doesn’t need a soppy mum, he needs love and support.

If he can do it, so can I!

Your comments have really helped - thanks ladies!!!

Today’s been a hard one - Baby C had some hearing aids fitted after what feels like a thousand hearings tests. His got a moderate hearing loss which means he will struggle with speech without them.

He coped so well having them in already at 10 weeks old but yet I’m struggling. I can’t tell you why though!! I’ve been an emotional wreck all day just seeing him in them :-(

Second time in 4 days - 9 hours of uninterrupted sleep…. Lets hope this continues because OMG it’s a total beaut!!! Baby C is the man!!!

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